I imagine that when anyone feels emotions of strong intensity that it makes them uneasy and that is diificult for them to deal with it.
Now imagine not knowing how to deal with regular emotions. Imagine not knowing how to deal or even process your emotions and the emotions of others. Imagine not having the ability to filter out which emotions you want to absorb from others from the ones you don't.
Then imagine not having any kind of social instincts about yourself or others to help you cope with any of this.
Then you'll get a glimpse of what's it's like to be someone with autism.
I'm sorry for the drama. I don't like to rag on my disorder (especially since I think it's given me a lot of gifts neuro-typicals just don't have), but it's so hard to deal with my emotions when they reach a certain intensity.
It's like there's a painful chaotic mass inside me that wants to come out, but I have no idea on how to let it out. I don't know why it's there or how to express what I'm feeling, so it's almost impossible for me to let it out or for others to help me let it out.
It gets so intense somtimes that I end up hurting myself by accident or crying like a crazy person because I can't deal with it.
Anyway, if you're worried about me, don't. I drew this in response to something that happened weeks ago, and it's already been resolved.
I just needed to let out the last few shreds of emotion out.
It's definitely not up to par with my usual work, but hey, that's not the purpose here
Don't worry, BlueJay is coming. I had to redo the first pages (and I think everyone will like them much more than my old ones